It's a Sunday today. Yet me and sist's mood was ruined. Things are happening one after another. And changes many things. Th only thing that didn't change was his attitude towards us, i guess. Slowly, I'd forgotten th meaning of love too. Remember sist once told me that no matter what we face outside, we still have a home; for us t rest and feel loved. What's all these nao? Here cold, there hatred. While reading sist's blog, many memories flashed through my mind. As we grow up, communication gets lesser. Yeah like what sist wrote, no family love nao. Even a simple meal or small activity will do. Just for th five of us t gets tgt. What's so difficult? Mummy had been emotional nowadays cus of grandfather's illness. It's impossible for me t have a heart t heart talk w/ brother/dad too. I guess only sist understands my feelings and thoughts. After 2009 incident, working hard trying t get a good result t let them proud. And t believe that I'd changed. Listening t teachers and friends advice for not giving up no matter how hard things would be. I tried alr. But what else can i do t make us back like what we used t be? Yeah i wished he could understand my thoughts too. I dont hate him. Seriously i dont. After what he said t me on 211009, th more i know he loved us. Just that it's all in his way. Sist, read this and change your mind. He's still our precious one. And he'll always be. Okay enough of emotional stuffs. Bye.