Dont know what's the best word to describe now.
So many kinds of mixed up emotions.
Music enters my ears and memories running around in my mind.

Memories? Nah, actually not. Just some flash backs of past.
Some incidents that once caused me to be so alone. so messed up.
Some people. Some conversation. Some mail.

Quite long ago though.

Randomly, i saw something. And then everything's back on my mind since last night.
What should i call it?
A code that i wanna break. Two years ago.
Thought i was suppose to forget it, and i thought i did.
But nah, i have good memory of past. So never ever underestimate me.

Then yeah, last night. Just one second before i close my eyes and sleep.
My mind was a lil blur already, so tired. But i broke it.
Yes, i broke it. What i wanna broke last time.
No harm no benefits. Just a lil painful in my heart.

Not sure what's the situtation now. Or just me myself being paranoid here.
Paranoid so what? Stand in my shoes and think.
Or maybe not, unless you had went thru everything in my past life.

So complicated, so messed up, full of confusions, full of problems?
Perhaps?
I got out of there. But my mind can goes back anytime.
And it just did yesterday. Or should i say since yesterday?
Dont feel good seriously.