This is my best smile for today already.

It's 1.45am, and my eyes are swelling very badly now.

I feel like one stupid girl now who knows nothing.

For such a long time.

I KNOW NOTHING.

I should be angry. I ought to be, but im not.

I could seriously feel that pain in my heart at that point of time.

I could feel how weak my body was when i read through.

I could feel how worried my mom was.

As expected, i called up qz and sl.

Neither did i know that my best friend once faced a similar situation.

But they totally overcomed it.

Yeah, im not ending it yet.

Stupid silly naive whatever.

I can't.

" i love you wholeheartedly. once, now, always and forever."